After spending the entire month of July in yoga teacher training, I am more flexible in mind body and spirit and yet I have so many questions about my life path and my point of focus.
I have wanted to be a yoga instructor for most of my life and like so many things I didn’t do it because I was afraid. Because there were obstacles in my path, because I didn’t think it was for people like me. We all have obstacles, mine happen to be 50 extra lbs, 20 years spent pursuing a career path that I am very good at but less than passionate about, and a habit of putting other peoples wants and needs before my own.
It is interesting that today, when attending a class taught by a fellow Summer School Graduate, her intention for the class was kleshas. Of course we talked about klesha in depth during yoga teacher training but it was sitting as a student in front of Lisa that allowed me to really think about how my afflictions had been hold me back for so many years. I had already committed myself to blogging about my path for the next year, but I didn’t know where to start. And, it was so clear when she started to talk. I let these obstacles prevent me from doing the very things in life that would allow me to live most fully. The same way that so many of my friends do. The same way our parents do or our grandparents did. It is an epidemic really, and essentially we let imaginary things distract us from our true selves.
So after I had my AHA, I see light shooting out of Lisa’s ears moment, I thought damn, ok, here is my starting point.
And, so it begins….
I love getting to see your starting point! I have also been relating to those damned Kleshas lately. I’ve been having a very difficult time over the last few months engaging with anything outside of my own mind/thoughts. Sometimes it’s hard to break out of the shell of stagnation, but here I am, starting my blog, too. Funny how sometimes writing can get the juices flowing just enough that we can start to move in whatever expressive/explorative/action oriented direction we so choose/need. I can’t wait to read more of your experience. 🙂